change

if someone told me that i will get fat, lose my job and broke i will tell them they are mad for even thinking i will do it. few years ago, motherhood for me was more of a hassle than a gift.honestly i thought of that. but somehow God has changed my heart. i don't know when and how but He just did. i could not imagine doing all these things before. but believe it or not i do not find pleasure in shopping anymore, i could not care less if i gain a few pounds( or more aside from the fact i dont have size 10 or 12 clothes to wear) or be a stay home mum and have my brain they call stagnant.

i do not know what our future will be but i am looking forward to it. i am excited to new beginnings. i pray for God's blessing of good health for David as we will all now depend on him for our survival, patience same as my mother and being strong and positive in dealing life's challenges. i know it won't be easy.