being a first time mum is no joke. for almost 10 years i enjoyed my money,my time and my space. all these 3 are gone now.but i am not complaining.as what i have always said i am just stating a fact.
i have read books, listened to friends solicited (and unsolicited) advise or watched experts about parenting BUT still i did not know what to do when i held a baby in my hand. for the first few weeks, i cried with her.yes we cried together but for different reasons.she was probably hungry, gassy or sleepy , me on the other hand was tired, exhausted, confused,sore (CS wound pastilan makatagam!) ,frustrated, disappointed or just plainly crazy.
she is 3 months now and i have slowly accepted the fact that MY life is "over". it is not about me anymore. whatever happens my baby comes first. she is my life,my world...i did not know the true meaning of SELFLESSNESS until i become a mother. that is why i truly believe in the saying "Live life before you give life".
i am dreading the day that i go back to work.when will that be? only God knows. i will try my hardest to stay as long as i can. it is painful to watch my account balance.and i will be lying if i say i don't miss the money because i do . but the thought of leaving her with someone (even mum) breaks my heart.i pray that the Lord will give me the strength to do it because i know one day it will come.
Hi Norms.. look at that angel sleeping peacefully.
ReplyDeleteIf only we are neighbors, I'd offer myself and be her nanny and charge you at an affordable price. Lol.
*giggle*
ReplyDeleteI guess most moms go through that phase - the phase of crying along with the baby. I went through that too. =) But your life is far from over. You're just moving on to another chapter in your life. Mwah!
@ mai - maghuwat jud ko nimo sa airport.just tell me when aron tagbuon ka namo ni chichi ug banner.
ReplyDelete@lynette- at least dili diay kay ako ra and di ko tanto boang.hehehe